Most days I am sad. Not due of my circumstances, but do to my own inabilities. The people I look up to in this world, the people that make me say to myself, "that is what it means to be a man", the two traits that are at the center, integrity, and courage. They are character traits I hold high. I place them together because It takes a lot of courage to walk in integrity. Both of which, I fall short in.
It takes courage to walk in integrity because integrity means very little, when the decisions being made, are at little sacrifice to ones self. Will I make the right decisions, even when I will lose the most? Will I walk in integrity when the only ones who will take any notice, are God and myself?
We walk in a world where integrity is held very low, while money, accomplishments, social status, and power are held very high. All of which, are temporary. But I have to believe, that the virtues I believe in, have eternal value. I have to believe that they have meaning, that transcend what I see today. Otherwise, virtue has no meaning.
How will I come to the place, where making the right decisions, come before making the easy ones? All I can do is fall to my knees, knowing I am helpless. I must lay my pride aside, and ask God to do his work. I must believe in the God who will do the work. I must have confidence in the eternal consequences in doing so. Because without virtue, there is nothing, and without the God who created them, there is no virtue.
